This is a short post and not necessarily a happy post. However, as you are my dear Reader, I want to include you in the happenings of my horsey and endurance life both for the better and the worse.
I'm cancelling my attendance at Lake Sonoma this weekend. I really really really want to go. However, over the past couple of days I've started to feel more and more overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I need to get done before Monday's test and today, after feeling a bit depressed this afternoon and completely discouraged about my performance in school, I've decided that these feelings are feedback from my body telling me that I need to slow down and take something off my plate.
An additional stressor is that by missing Friday, I was going to miss the presentation of a group project, something that my small group was OK with, but with a test on Monday covering the group topics, and 2-3 lectures that same day, AND already feeling behind and needing every hour I have this weekend to stay up on the material, it was hard to think that I could trailer somewhere without electricity for over 48 hours and lose that time.
That something unfortunately, is my LD this weekend. Which means likely my season is over for 2012 :(. I'll try to get in lots of good conditioning rides over the winter, including some "home LD's" so that we can start the 2013 in good form ready for a 50.
As a consolation prize, I'll run in the Clarksburg half marathon Veteran's day weekend and trailer Farley out for a conditioning ride sometime this month.
But for right now I'm going to focus on my studying, my health, and getting myself and Farley in kickass shape here at home.
Sometimes you just gotta roll with it:)
ReplyDeleteAt first glance, of the title, I thought something had happened to Farley, so in comparison missing a ride doesn't really seem THAT bad.
What CG said. Me too.
ReplyDeleteYou have the rest of your life for endurance. Go study to be a vet now. We'll be right here, waiting for you!
What they said.
ReplyDeleteAgree with everyone else! As fun as a ride is, school totally comes first. And less stress is always good. I'll be at Lake Sonoma, so will report back (even if you're' not going, hope for good weather for me, please!)
ReplyDeleteMaybe we can set up a ride here. We can do one loop of 1/2 LD and I'll let you lap me.
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Thanks everyone for your throughts and reassurances. I'm just feeling a bit discouraged with school right now on top of everything else. Hopefully the test goes well Monday and I can get back into the groove. Dad - I'll probably take you up on that riding offer some time. Not going is definitely the right thing to do. Feel better today, not as rushed and crammed, but still having nightmares that are related to themes on excess anxiety etc. so I know unconciousely I must be under a lot of stress and pressure right now, even if I feel better for staying home this weekend.
ReplyDeleteDo what you gotta do. There's always another ride. :0)
ReplyDeleteJust remember you're not the only one with anxiety about exams, we're all in this together (i.e. us vet students). Sorry you miss your competition, but it is important to listen to yourself and not over-do it! Best of luck
ReplyDeleteThankfully I don't have test anxiety, just more generalized anxiety that I'm learning to listen to body feedback and then taking action.
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